I feel an urge to be quiet. Not inactive, no, but quiet as I go about working my magic in my life and for the world. So with the influx of activity in the world specifically in Syria, I am being quiet.
It's September 23, the second most powerful day of the year. In my quiet, I am calling upon the grandmothers and grandfathers of Sirius, and I am calling upon my future selves, several of them, and together we are creating a union of magic, a confluence of our various magics, to flow into the world.
During the One-Day workshops, Lazaris talked about the unique nature of the current chaos in the world. He spoke of a convergence of an array of futures from the constricting to the expanding - from the negative to the positive. These futures are not manifesting but they are converging in the present. To this, there is a convergence of the prevailing human crises of dignity, character, vision, and vitality and of the continuing crises of fear and of hope. With all these energies converging in the present, the current chaos is different. It is more intense and more prevalent. We all feel that.
Chaos, by its nature, is a delicate state. It precedes and follows change, all change no matter how big or small. In addition, even a subtle shift during a state of chaos can ultimately have huge impact. This is why such states - states that seem totally random with no order or direction in which the most subtle of shifts can generate profound change - are called chaos.
While these futures and these crises are converging, during the chaos, all sorts of choices and decisions are being made. Those choices and decisions produce subtle shifts. What will be the impact? What changes will eventually emerge from those subtle shifts in the domain of chaos?
I now understand more fully why Lazaris spoke of October as a time to be cautious. With the raging political conflicts, internationally and nationally, it seems too easy to make choices and decisions that are fraught with hidden agendas and riddled with hasty and sometimes irrational shortsightedness. It seems too easy to build choices and decisions upon an armature of constricting emotions: anger, fear, hurt, blame, revenge.
Change begins with me. I need to be cautious with my choices now and with my decisions. Then I can work my magic to dream that others are also being cautious. I can make a map of cautious choice, and I can dream that others find such maps for themselves.
To this end, I am being quiet, and in the stillness, I quietly make my choices. I work to weed out any of my hidden agendas and to weave in a bit of wisdom: seeing the bigger picture without losing sight of the current one; reaching beyond logic and reason without losing touch with either, and letting my imagination be wild and wonderful without losing my tether to the rational.
In the quiet, I am working on my vision of my future. I expand my image and sense myself in my future as my world becomes new.
My choices. That comes first. Then I am working magic on the impact - the affect and the effect - of the choices and decisions others are making. Perhaps I cannot change their choices, but I can change the impact of those choices in accordance and compliance with my will, my imagination, and my love. I am a magician. I can work magic.
My vision. This also comes first, and then I work my magic to build a vision for the world. From my world becoming new, I envision the world being new. I don't know the details of what happens between "here and now" and "there and then." I don't need to detail in the Between of worlds. Somewhere in the Between of "here and now," magic happens. Beyond the Between, there is the "there and then". Magic happens. I am okay with that.
I am quiet, but I am very busy working my magic of dreaming others waking up with caution, of working my magic of change, and of infusing my choices and decisions and the choices and decisions of others with wisdom.
Right now, this is how it seems to me.